This will teach me not to disappear for weeks.
The strange part is I am best looking dead guy you will ever see. Every friend says how good I look. I don't feel really bad my leg hurts when I lay down other than that no balance or strength issues. Today's doctor was surprised about the strength in my legs.
The whole thing is weird Sloan is known not to give up but they seem to with me. So the thought of me being on my deadbed is depressing and not letting me get things done. Even my regular form of motivation is not working

. Spent most of my life figuring it would just happen not be sitting at the end waiting for it.
Michael, I went through the death thing when I was 20 so I try to treat each day as a gift. Since getting off the hormone treatments my days have been pretty crappy gifts.
In the summer of 1965 I was doing great and my only worries were financial (IBM salary was well below my USPS pay). Blessed days with my wife and two small children and enjoying my first summer working for IBM. Took that life and my left arm for granted.

Two months later I woke up in the hospital with several unexpected adjustments (the shaved patch on my head where they sewed a baseball flap back on was the least but still noticeable one). Another two months and I'm alive and happy to have disappointed several of my surgeons and all of the local funeral homes.

Having survived riding under a train, I figured smoking wasn't that big a risk I am smoking the last of the carton of cigarettes my father gifted me on my 21st birthday in the hospital.
Thank you
I am doing as much as I can. Just getting the news set me back a few days.
As I have mumbled a few times it not so bad here it is what my wife is going through with it. I can medicate myself to happiness.
We are gathering in Hull Mass to eat at Jake's and have a nerf gun fight at a fort.
I would be outside working on my coop for the birds but the rain screwed that up I am soaked worse than my hot flashes.
So I guess some one might learn from what I am going through because we are all gonna do it.
My 21 year old son has spent a month in Japan he comes home on Sunday I need to keep my head in a good place to show him you need to boogie till the end. I spent much of my life doing thing that if you screwed up it was not gonna be pretty or in the case of being a corner worker racing accidents happen wrong time wrong place.
Most likely I will boogie till I drop, the appointment the other day the doctor was impressed with my leg strength.
My Pain Management approved smoking medication is working again helping with motivation and some pain.
The next visit is a review with prostrate doctor think I am going to phase the question this way. Should I buy seeds for next years spring planting?
thanks again
michael
I'm jealous of your leg strength. My knees are acting up so I have difficulty rising from the floor to a standing position and my shoulder complains when I use my arm to assist my legs. On the bright side, I've lost 30 pounds. Had the knees x-rayed and there's some degeneration in both. Orthopedic surgeon doesn't think I need surgery yet but he added 200 mg Celecoxib (brand name Celebrex) to my current 50 mg tramadol. Googai says the two drugs work well together.
I usually ask my doctors if investing in green bananas is wise. I thought removing the whole prostate, including the tumors was the end but it turns out mine metastasized an found its way into my bones. Hormone treatment before and after radiation of the bone tumor has the side effect of menopause and osteoporosis.
My current weakness has Liane more worried than me so I suspect I'll be signing up for one of the cancer blood tests.
Michael
True, such situations are always very hard for loved ones, but this in itself is a major reason to keep your spirits up.
Looking forward to your son’s return is a good start, and please do buy the 'seeds'.
@gman007 is right. You have to keep a positive attitude. I got to see that little guy in the blue hat turn 62 last November. Also got to see his seven children grow up. His youngest turned 22 three days later. The best of all is being there to see six great grandchildren growing up.
Our daughter is a year older and has two boys. Technically they are no longer 'boys at 27 and 29 but both are still in school and live at home when they aren't on campus.
The seeds are not cheap, not like a pack of a 100 for 2.49. They come in lots of 3 or 5 and about 10 dollars a seed. Some packs are in the 100 and up mostly based on hype. The price of plants like anything else is out of control. A mini Lotus was 99 at Hick's.
I do have a seed project in one of my tents 3 females two males when I open the tent to water so much of a white cloud comes out. I can confirm pollen has little or no effect on me.
Made a run to HD 320 lbs of sand for the coop 80lbs of composted manure. Have my apprentice coming in morning to move **** and help me finish the quail coop.
Michael, my addictive personality defect has kept me from trying to grow anything but bananas, My "tent" would be big enough to hide my house.
Told me not to buy the seeds.
They have given me 9 months to a year the last three months I will not be gardening.
Started making arrangements to sell some my tools. My suitcase Miller TIG for 500$ and 100 hours of labor, I have to give up driving when I go on the patch.
Having lunch today with a famous racing driver.
My plan is to boogie till I drop.
The best any of us can do is keep on boogieing.
Run that plan as hard as you can and don't leave unspoken words for people you care about.
Steve, I try not to be morbid so all my family ever hears is that I love them. That and the occasional story -- which Liane tells me I have to set them to "Random Play" rather than "Rinse and Repeat."
I'm on a roll. My father died at 55, his father died at 53 and his grandfather died at 50. I turn 82 in 95 days.
Just a thought, most of the time we don't plant trees to benefit from them, usually trees gets planted and it's the future generations that gets to benefit from a full grown tree.
Cody, not if you live in Florida.
My trees get harvested in Oct Nov it is called trim season.
Michael, does Bonsai pruning improve the potency?
Hmmm... Well, all I can say is- IMHO- just buy the seeds, plant them and see what happens. I seriously believe in "hope" - if you truly want to see those seeds grow, then you absolutely will.
But- not if you don't plant them in the first place.
Mate, thinking all my positive thoughts in your direction. I do not claim to have a single clue as to what you are currently going through, but , well, if you don't keep trying I swear I'll fly over to you house and spray Drop Bear attractant all over your house ! So there !
Greg, be careful about spreading that stuff around.
I'm with you
Andrew
We don't have Bears on Long Island. So next idea?
I would rather not waste the money and the time. To be honest there are other things to keep me busy. My current crop of trees are getting close to 5 feet tall. Just gave a 4 foot tall Vietnam Black to my dearest friend it smells like Chinese food.
No you don't really have a clue as it is spread all over my bones lung and brain. So I must be rational with the choices I make from now till the the end. Gonna boogie till I drop is the game plan. I should get enough from this harvest to last me till the end.
It is a tough call I have some hope but I can't live in a fantasy. I have an amount of time to get things in order where many don't get that chance. I told my son he has a bunch of time to ask me things, where my aunt who raised me just dropped dead I had many questions to ask her but never had the chance.
Michael, carnivorous Koalas that hide in wait up in the gum trees are native to Australia and the gentle kind are only found in Ohio, Florida or Southern California. I think you're safe.
A Vietnam Black is a pretty valuable gift.
As a professional procrastinator I still don't have my things in order. It has been 61 years so I guess my plan is to let someone else get my things in order after I'm gone.
I'm with
@Coolabah . My systems are failing, too. With no uptick in sight. I'm still doing **** for the future, like I'm going to live forever, even if I'm not going to be there to play.
Kay, my toilet paper life seems to have a few more turns but boy are they spinning off faster every year.
I only noticed last year that in the Killer Rabbit scene, King Arthur exclaims, "That rabbit's dynamite!" Which is a completely anachronistic term for somebody in his historical era. Then again, so are peasants living in an anarcho-syndicalist commune and taking turns to act as a sort of executive-officer-for-the-week but all the decisions of that officer have to be ratified at a special bi-weekly meeting by a simple majority, in the case of purely internal affairs but by a two-thirds majority, in the case of more major....
@Squankum, most movies have a 'continuity' person on set. Sometimes they screw up and in a single scene a glass of wine goes down and then up regardless of how many sips are taken. Not sure Monty Python invested in a 'historical accuracy' person.
"anarcho-syndicalist" ?
You are spending too much time reading and not enough time changing oil on the van or assessing German strut design..
Gerry, it's another defective cell in my brain. I had to go back and watch more of the movie.
Dennis the Constitutional Peasant:
Ozzy Man's koala bear compilation:
@Squankum, this is why I have to disappear every once in a while.
CNC_Rick, I'll be writing up a European travel itinerary for you some other day (semi-joking) but have you been to Yellowstone National Park? A mere 1,300 mile drive from your state, perhaps.
Seems like Rick's travel plans don't require a passport.
Good idea, Bob! But I went back further. This weekend I wrote a post this weekend about a 1957 book he needs to read, about the history of machine tools. (Long before CNC.)
At least you pointed him to a somewhat familiar rabbit hole.
Squankum, our family went to Oregon and Washington State to visit relatives on Mom's side. That was in 1977, so that would put me at about the age of 11. We went to Mount Rainier, one day. Mom's uncle took Dad and I to Puget Sound, to do some fishing. The only thing we caught was foot long sharks. On our way back we stopped for the night in Cody, Wyoming. Dad took us to see a rodeo, and after the rodeo ended, I was able to get a few autographs from some of the "cowboys". Chance of a lifetime, I'll tell ya. The whole town stunk of sulfur... Even our water from the motel faucet tasted like sulfur. Then we went on to Yellowstone Nat'l Park. We saw Old Faithful, some paint pots in the ground and whatever else was bubbling. Neat experience. Then on to Mount Rushmore. That was cool. But that trip was 49 years ago... Maybe I'm due to go back and see Yellowstone again. We went through the Badlands at about midnight. We missed Wall Drug, they were closed. We did see the Badlands with moonlight. Mom was reading the map that day and took us on a "shortcut" ha. Dad drove us out to the West Coast in a 1966 Chevy Caprice. The 283 engine was showing its age at that point, so we had to stop at every Kmart and buy a case of oil. We had to stop every 150 miles to put another quart in.
Rick, our first trip out west, when I was 10, took us to the west coast and up into Canada so we saw the California National Parks, Crater Lake and Mount Rainier. The Canadian parks included Banff, Jasper and Lake Louise. Second trip covered the parks east of the Rockies so we saw Bryce and Zion, the Great Salt Lake, Yellowstone and Wind Cave. I was 12 when we drove to Alaska and made it a point to be in Calgary for the Stampede. Stayed home for a summer and the year I turned 14 we drove to Mexico.
I'd like to see many of those places! I wind up seeing Yellowstone with some regularity. What's changed since you've been there? Geologically, nothing. Well, there was the big flood a few years ago, that destroyed some roads and bridges and they're still re-engineering some things. Biscuit Basin blew up unexpectedly a year or two ago and is closed. (Steam, not volanic.) Still more geologic things to see there than you can do in a trip! And waterfalls. There's a 300 foot waterfall and a gorge 800 -1,200 ft. deep for 20 miles after it! That waterfall would be the thing the park is most famous for if it weren't for Old Faithful.
(As I try to explain it to people, this park has at least 20 things that would justify a state or national park all by themselves.)
The Grand Prismatic Spring became a social media celebrity a few years ago, so now that parking lot is jammed. The "pro tip" is to drive a mile down the road and park in another parking lot and hike on a wide cinder trail to an overlook that gives you a better view of it anyway. Alas, that's a busy trail and overlook now, too! (Fear not, there are plenty of other peace-and-quiet places in the park. I always recommend Slough Creek and then Lamar Valley for lower numbers of people, scenery, animals.)
Lots of big fires in 1988, you can still see some tree trunks standing and the new growth filling in. Moose took a hit from that loss of habitat but are now rebounding to something under 100 total, and are something you can, with luck and effort, see. (Pro: they're very large. Con: they often stand in deep creek beds.)
A lot more bison than in the old days! 4-6,000. Lots of elk now, too, but their huge numbers aren't always visible from where we can drive. A small herd has adopted park headquarters at Mammoth Hot Springs.
Since 1970, the bears have been taught to not hang around human areas or beg for food from cars. They're
generally something you see at a distance.
The biggest change? Wolves! There are now eight wolf packs in the park. Reintroduction began 30 years ago. Seeing these can take more time and effort and optics -- but there are always wolf nerds out there every morning and late afternoon in the right spots who often can show you a wolf or five* at a distance and are happy to let you peek through their telescope.
www.nps.gov
Here's a handy bar graph about which months are busiest. Winter's nice, for lighter crowds and animals standing out against the white snow. But as you might guess, potentially very cold, but it's a dry cold.
Things used to slack off right after Labor Day weekend, but people are now catching on that it's not getting so cold so fast, and mid-September is moderately popular. Late September, bears are are really thinking about putting on the pounds for hibernation and are very busy.
Camping in a tent is a fairly priced campground site just like a state campground, but you have to book well in advance or get lucky with canceled reservations. Air B&B's are now a common option in the towns outside the park boundary. Hotel options galore outside and inside the park. Many campgrounds in the park take RV's.
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* My record: 22! In a long line, headed out to hunt in winter at sundown.
@Squankum, in the mid-1950s we could visit the national parks without any reservations and always had a nice campsite for the week or so we stayed in the big ones (Yosemite, Grand Teton and Yellowstone) and as you say it takes more than a day to see more than the roads in those parks.
@Bob Heine , we haven't heard from you in 3 weeks. Even if you're not feeling up to a long post, just raise your hand. Hope things are going OK.
Kay, sorry for my absence. I have been feeling very weak lately so I can only spend a couple of hours at a time working on the PT Cruiser.
The first day started with the fabrication of a freebee work light.

Removal of the intake manifold went well...
...as did the removal of the valve cover.

Cleaned up the valve cover...

... and managed to re-install it before it all went sideways.
Bob hasn't been posting but he was around last Thursday.
Andrew, Every once in a while I take a break and come here to escape.