Here is the issue, I have a very compulsive personality, it takes almost nothing to get into a bad spot. I am currently seeing a therapist and she thinks that it may be a good idea to dial things back. I know I need to deal with my personal issues first, but I have been using the shop as a way out, the problem now is I am using the internet as a way out of my shop organizing. I am also spending way more money than I should be, I keep using the excuse that I will sell this tool, or that item, yet they still sit in a pile. I want to concentrate on myself and on my relationship with my GF, they are much more important than anything else. This is not going to be an overnight thing, but I am slowly weaning myself off the unimportant.
Now having said that, this thread is not unimportant, it got me through a really tough time, the support that I have received has been great. I don't want anyone to feel like the thread is the reason for me cutting back, I think once I have had some time to understand my inner workings, I have PTSD issues from a childhood trauma and sometimes my decisions are made by a compromised mental faculty. This has caused me so many issues over the years, the current therapist has helped me overcome some basics with ease, no one else has ever even been able to get me to the point I am at right now. The next steps will be a bit more painful and take more time, so I hope that once I get myself right, I can move forward with my life. The good thing is I feel optimistic, I am also in a good position financially to be able to take the time to work through this, so I figure I have to stop procrastinating.