My biggest issue right now is trying to focus my intentions on something, anything. I know that everyone has lots of tasks to get done, lots of projects, but I do think I have an exceptionally long list. I wish I could say it was all self created, except it isn't and the part that is out of my control is getting longer and longer. I started to do a full review of projects and I just got myself confused. It is like having a pile of rope that needs to be untangled, except there are thousands of ends so you just can't figure out where to start, makes me feel like I am not getting anything done. In reality I am getting things done, lots of things, things that don't always help get me where I need to be. Friday I tried to get some loose ends *******, it felt like I had some success, only time will tell. Definitely going to need several more days of dealing with loose ends, today I got the Blue Burb loaded up with my tools and supplies, I had to take things out of the Maroon Burb to get the plywood with all my packout stuff attached. It felt good, but there was really no place to put the stuff I pulled out of the Maroon burb. This created an entirely new level of annoying stuff, stuff I previously put in there so I wouldn't have to deal with it. I want to deal with it, I want to sort it, I want to store it, I want to throw it in the dumpster, I can't do all of those things. I really just want to get my sand blast cabinet functioning so I can get the trailer parts and wheels cleaned up and painted, of course now I have made a mess and now I just want to walk away. I am going to try and stick with it for a while longer, maybe things will turn around a bit and I can get through my new "old" mess. I can see that there is going to be a lot more of this exact same feeling over the next several months. It is amazing how quickly motivation can get drop kicked with some simple tasks that 99% of everyone else could handle in their sleep.
Next week I have help at least one day, the goal is to get the two trailers back to operational condition, I have to weigh what needs to be done with what I want to get done, this is always a tough one, I tend to overestimate what can and can't be done. The month of May should be a good test, there are several projects that need to get done and I should be able to manage (juggle?) all of them and still succeed. I have been pretty good about buying any new projects, I have been concentrating on buying the necessary parts and supplies to complete existing projects, the supply chain is doing its best to keep me from finishing things though. I know when I get too far off course someone is going to call me out, hopefully I will hear it.......